If things just fell into place..

 Mean Brain is trying to attack me again, so here's what I need from you, God.

If things fell into place, this is what my life would look like.

I would interview with the Seattle company. We would bond over our shared mutual work colleagues (that would be a bit of kismet, I have to say). No idea how I would get through the panel interview, but I would. It's virtual, so that should help.

The boy would match me on even just 1 app or send me a message. 

I mean really that's the lynchpin here. 

I thought I had more of a fantasy.

Let's face it, I don't need the Seattle job to move. I want a boy.

But maybe for dramatic effect, which I don't need.

I would interview, get the job. Move, I guess. Sometime in October, contact him. We get to be friends and then start dating (no physical stuff), then fall in love and live happily ever after.

I mean, there's not much else to this fantasy.

Along the way, I magically start getting back in shape, and learning how to wear make-up, and have fun buying cute clothes.

I don't know, I thought this story would be more fun.

There's not much that actually needs to fall in place to get this train moving. I don't really need signs, I need this boy to contact me. 

But since my life is mostly struggle, I guess the struggle version would be... somehow struggle through the interview, lots of tears, lots of hemming and hawing; get a 3 month rental; wonder what the heck I'm doing with my life; ...

I'm not in the mood.