I hate you too!

 I'm so tired of putting up with people! I don't think there's anyone who I walked away from that has come back in my life and I haven't been reminded why the relationship ended.

I hate everyone especially the person I was just talking to.

I feel like I'm nice to people. I try to be compassionate and spare people's feelings. I make time for them. But the experience is not returned.

I'm tired of being made to feel bad.

I go above and beyond not to do this to anyone, but the favor is not returned.

So no friends, no reliable family, and no partner.

Wow, what a life.

I say it over and over, I'm so glad I didn't bring kids into this world. 

I'm feeling self-destructive.

I just want it all to be over.

I want it all to make sense.

When I was really in tune with my gift, I knew I was born in the wrong time. I knew the thing I wanted most - that pure, perfect love was not something to be found on earth, not in my life time, and not to me. 

But I stayed because I wanted to be proven wrong.

And I just wasn't. 

And I don't think I'm even brave enough to do the one thing I know will bring me solace and take me out of my misery.