The Seattle Fantasy, cont...

 So maybe I consider this Fall Seattle trip a discovery period.

I can try making it my intention to meet new people; see if I can make friends; get more involved somehow.

I want to reconnect with the Iranian, and see if we can establish at least a paling-around type of friendship.

I want to reconnect with the Cheap Jew (his words), in October and see if we can re-establish just a connection. Just without using words, consider him as friends and knowing labels and relationship scare him, just get to know each other without defining the relationship. In the fantasy, I don't imagine a life without him. The plan will be to do that in October, so I can have 8 weeks of distance between us. He will be the unspoken lynchpin. If we can at least spend time together and there's promise or hope of us at least being good friends (with romance not off the table), then I can make plans to stay in Seattle longer in 2023.

But for the first month, I want to try to

- Go to more meetups (so might have to get a car)

- Consider a part-time job (so might have to get a car)

- Take walks (so work on my emotional health)

 - Consider church?

- Test out the weather?

- Pay attention to how I feel living in predominantly white spaces

- Consider spending more time with Seattle mom

So it'll be discovery. I need to walk away from the trip with at least 1 friend (or two). 

Or I can just stay my happy but at home.