4/14/22 - So What Happens Now?

 So what happens now. I did it, I told my old college roommate via email that I reached FIRE. It passed the old if I die tomorrow.

If I died today, yes, I want someone in the world to know I reached FIRE.

I even sent an email on a Wed (not my preferred day of Tuesday). She responded this morning so that felt amazing!

She asked, what do you do now?

I don't know.

I wish I did.

So what does happen now?

In dream world, maybe I get to live the life I've always dreamed of. Maybe I get to be a single hot girl in a city somewhere. 

I don't have to save any more money. 

So If I can spend everything I make from now on, what does my life look like?

Maybe I want to live for 2 years in a city apartment.

Hair done, nails did.

Go out, be social.

Date again?!

I have a new name, I want a new life.

I could repurpose this pain and start new somewhere else. I don't have to be broken MERJ anymore.

I can be cool and hip. But what will my purpose be?

I'd have to rent this place for 2 years because it is ultimately my retirement home. FIRE won't work anywhere else. 

Is it Seattle that beckons me?

Do I now spend $2500/mon on rent to live out a fantasy?

Do I go to Austin?

Do I settle back into despair if I don't find love?

Is love my only objective?

And if I don't find it. Do I kill myself? Do I self-combust? Do I come back to Death House and live out the next 1- rest of days?

Do I even need to think that far?