New Job, Day 1

 So I know I haven't provided an official post of New Job, but we'll get there.

I just wanted to celebrate small wins because as we have seen (re: history of my life), they are few and far between.

Today was actually fine. I did a lot of stalking of my former boss, namely just creeping her calendar and reminiscing, sometimes refeuling my anger. I still have some access to old databases and I just cringe at some of the work being done. I'm being dramatic, it's fine just not the standard I set. 

The creeping got kind of boring because she's OOO.

Part of me is waiting to see how long it'll take for her to remove my access to her calendar - it's either never because she won't realize it since I'm not part of her default team or soon after her return. It'll be telling either way.

Today was good because I didn't have to do much. So far, I'm a combination of - will I ever get this? And relax, so many people in this company are not very good at their job. Sad, but true. If I can just demonstrate even some level of competence, and BE NICE, it should be fine.

One of my personal goals is to stop using No or Not statements. It's a fun mental game to reframe things in the positive. Yes, this is how I amuse myself.

Another possible fail-safe is that my new "Buddy" aka Mentor is new to her role. So we'll either fumble together or something bad will happen. Either way, it'll be less contentious than previous Buddy because there's no way I can do her job better than her because homey don't know nothing.

So far, I think from the orientation today, I think I have at least a month where I can stay safely in Training Mode.

Small Wins.