I paid for shipping

 It took about 15 minutes to make the decision, but then I got tired of thinking and just clicked Purchase. Yes, friends, I just paid $7 to ship a $6 product. But my apartment is overrun with gnats. I'd seen a couple but when I went to take the trash out, I let out the beast! I guess they had multiplied in scores in the very closed trash can. 

Now that I've seen them, I can't unsee them. It's made me not want to cook because I know they're going to be flying on everything. And that's frustrating. I hate gnats! And really all bugs. 

I quickly Googled some sort of DIY gnat trap but didn't have the heart to scour through dozens of websites to try to cobble together something with the limited supplies I have here. So I went to Amazon and then Walmart. (So I did some bargain hunting, I'm not a maniac.) Ended up spending about a dollar more at Walmart because they don't add tax until the end and by then I'd already closed the Amazon window. Well, I get it allegedly 1 day sooner with Walmart. 

I'd thought about finding something for $30 that I could return but that wasn't as easy of a search as I thought. So I abandoned that idea; hemmed and hawed some more, then clicked Purchase.

My gnat trap will be here Tuesday.

Whee! 

Thanks, money!

So the apartment is tidier than it was an hour ago. I decided to wash some towels and have the dishwasher running a load.

I hope to cook the last meal between now and the next few days. 

I know I technically have 2 full weekends left, but it feels like just 1 more weekend left until my time here is up. 

I've been loosely toying with the idea of doing a money diary, but I don't really like the idea of interacting with my finances on a weekly basis. So I have to let that idea go.

In two weeks, I'll be done with dating for good. That'll be nice.

In the off chance that something like Sean happens next year, My Perfect Year, I just won't linger or make it as easy. Or cut it off at the head. The heartache to date has NOT been worth it. 

Next year, I'll be pure, unbroken, unbeaten MERJ 2.0. My last year. I'll be a martyr for all the hurt and abused women of the world. These duds don't deserve us. They missed out on a rare gem of beauty, kindness, intelligence, and loyalty. Sucks for them. The world will be a worse place without me in it.