Mon, Oct 24, 2022, This is hard

 Dear Diary,

Following this lady's rules is really hard because Sean is kind of slow on the uptake. I can't seem to get him to make dinner plans or any other plans other than cuddling.

I want to just suggest we watch a movie at my place, but I don't know if that's against the rules or not. It would be a lot easier, but so would just getting in bed with him and leaving alone.

So right now, I'm in sort of limbo of ...are we meeting at 6p? He said tentatively... but it's 5p. I would have needed to start heading that way now.

So what do I want to do? Stay home or go to trivia tonight. 

I ended up eating 2 slices of pizza because I couldn't get it together to go get something else to eat. And I'm getting sleepy. I hate the waiting.

I don't think he's experienced enough to date me, at least not the way I want to be dated. He just wants to talk about sex.

It was cute for the first couple of days but now it's like, don't you want to get to know me. Part of me wants to just throw in the towel, sleep with him, and lose all hope of getting to I Do.

I'm royally confused on what I'm supposed to be doing right now.

I thought this would help pass the time, but it's not working.