And just like that

 We humans are completely ridiculous. I have been groggy and in bed all morning. I don't know if I'm sleepy or if it's just the weather. But I can't get out of bed.

It was around 12n when a little sun peaked out and I was so hungry I got an apple and peanut butter. Since I was up, I put the last load of laundry in.

I was dreading having to go to my date at 1p. A few minutes later I decided to check the app because I don't know if we'd actually determined a place.

And I can't find the guy. I don't even remember his name, that's how interested I was. I scrolled through all my hidden messages and I don't see his last message. I think he unmatched me! Rude. And instantly I feel rejected and want to spiral.

I was already feeling some pitter patter in my pants and wanting to ambush Dan. And now this! I looked through CMB app to see if my backup is still there. He's gone too! What the? 

Although the primary feeling should be glee that I don't have to get out of bed, I'm utterly confused. Now I'm wondering when he unmatched me. I thought I had the same number of matches including him when I went to bed last night.

I'm too tired to formulate a new game plan about dating right now or next summer. I'm just confused. It's so interesting and I guess I should be thankful that this was not the experience I had this summer! I think I've managed to go on 1 date in these 2 months off the app where before I was going on 3 dates/week. So the jury is still out. The biggest risk is the blow to my self-confidence. 

So tonight, I'm left with bowling league at 5p.