Fri, 11a

 I'm so tired of waiting, waiting for my life to start. 

I want to see him again.

I'm going to message him. 

I'm already planning next year's rendezvous.

Temperance is not working!

I hate this!

I bought 3 mega millions tickets by the way. I feel like I'm going to win. I'm going to win only because it will complicate everything. 

I know my brain is lying to me, but I can't help it. 

How do I fast forward out of this place.

I think by not reacting badly, it leaves the door open for hope and I want to keep that door firmly shut.

I don't want to save my dignity.

What's the end of this story?

What do I have to look forward to the next 5 months?