Ugh Mondays

 I love when I pretend I'm so brave and I can handle anything. Spoiler - I really can't. Remember that email I was so sure I could handle. I sent it shortly after 9a their time and have already specifically checked my email twice to see if they responded. Generally, an email like that would've been responded to w/n an hour if a response was coming. 

So now I don't think I'll get a response. Which is how I sort of crafted the email - no response required. But still. I'm as annoyed as when people don't respond to email or text messages.

So now I'm in a weird mood. 

Grr. I know Tuesday's a better timing for business emails but here we are. Oh well. I didn't want to think about it during the weekend and today.

In mad-checking my email, I also stumbled on a voicemail from my lender. I hope it's because they haven't yet received my paperwork and not that there's an issue with it. 

I plan on doing absolutely nothing work/chore related. 

Because I couldn't get computer 3 to work quickly enough, I logged into work computer and out of habit checked work email. There seems to be a bit of drama going on, but luckily I'm not a responsible party. Yay! 

Perfect week to take off.

And like the emotional-cutter I am, I checked Old Boss's Calendar. I saw she was reviewing a data entry process for something I trained the team on. My heart skipped a beat. I bet they're going to say I did something wrong. :(

I'm so glad I didn't send something gushy like I wanted to over the weekend. Still having a lot of mixed emotions clearly. And I was so tempted to get gushy and just let all the hurt feelings go. Now, I'm really glad I didn't.

I hope to keep this 10 year old laptop out for the rest of this week so I don't have to use work laptop at all. It'll probably overheat (haha), but we shall see.

Well in an attempt to pacify myself, I did drive to get pizza for lunch. Plan is to stay in bed upstairs till 12n then go get lunch and then eat downstairs and stay there still dark.

Oh! I think I saw the strange woman from the other day on the street. I actually don't think it was her because this woman looked a little thinner and a different complexion, but this woman reminded me of her. She was in workout clothes and had the phone in her hand again. I think just those elements were the same, but it was odd.

Now that I think about it, there was another time where I saw a random woman this time with a guy two days in a row in workout gear. It was just weird because they are walking in these weird fields, not somewhere you'd intentionally go to workout. 

So, yeah. Still not sure what to make of that weird nigh. Truth be told, I'm a little disappointed that Maryland Aunty didn't reach out to make sure I was okay. But we already knew I don't really have a ride-or-die right now. And that's OKAY!

So what's got me in a mood:

- Not much to watch

- That event on Old Boss's Calendar

- No response to my Cold Call email

Womp, womp. And I just had 2 truffles, so food ain't working. 

Oh for gratitude

- The pizza was good...I really like how they use just the right amount of fake cheese without me having to provide direction. The crust is not very crispy though.

- Old Laptop connected to the internet

- 5 days off from work