Boundaries are for hot girls!

 So last night I unmatched the 40-year Old. This is why pain sucks, it clouds your judgement for future decisions.

I caught some feelings eventhough I met him less than a week ago. It was extremely confusing because I think he's just not that effusive and is very direct. But yet, I wanted him to be effusive and touchy-feely.

In the Respect Yourself universe  - this is unacceptable.

I'd told myself to just stick with it until end of the year so that I'd hit the targets I wanted - namely  not be alone during the holidays.

Fail. 

Even if I was leading the conversation, at least I was having a conversation.

I already bared my soul to this person, well as much baring as a private person like me can do.

Grr. 

I knew I should sleep on it but I already slept on it last night.

I just couldn't figure out if he was into me. I asked him and yes, he wanted to come over. But couldn't tomorrow. Yet didn't suggest another date.

Honestly, although I don't like to call people names. I think he's a little on the spectrum like I sometimes joke I am. 

After 2 years his roommate didn't think he was that nice and he seemed to think he is. 

When he was sweet, I thought he was sweet. But he's just so dry and matter of fact other times.

So yes, even if I was constantly feeling rejected from the silence, he was going to meet my goals. 

Ughhhhhhh!

I forgot I wasn't trying to get a relationship out of this. I wasn't looking for the love of my life. I just wanted a distraction for the rest of the year so I wouldn't be bored and sad all day. 

Will I ever know how good I have it while I have it?