Wed, Nov 16, 2022, Maximize fun, minimize (emotional) risk

 Should that be my motto for next year. Of course after tormenting me for nearly a week, Mean Brain has subsided and I'm back to planning My Best Year Ever.

I realized it's my last summer of my 30s. I just want it to be awesome!

So many thoughts.

Yesterday was a lot of blubbering. But this morning the sun is out and it's just hard to be sad when the sun is out! It just is. 

So I chase the sun. For the sun prefers my dark skin and doesn't discriminate against me. It treats all of us equally. 

Because of the new IRS limits, we have until Friday to adjust our HSA for next year. I think I'm going to go ahead and up it to the amount I'd need for 52 weeks of counseling.

Is this an impulse buy?

Probably. 

(grrr now my torMentor is emailing me... grrr now the reg team is messaging me.)

I was just in a good mood. Now this.

Any way back to my good mood.

I'm only planning for the best possible outcome (while still being mindful of risks to my emotional well being).

So ideally, I get counseling for a year with a white man. It'll help when I marry one and when I have to do business with one.

It's also nice to have a male perspective. Maybe I can stop being so afraid.

Either way, the best possible outcome is I fall in love and live happily ever after, or at the minimum just live for another year. 

As for the summer split, I think the knowns are that I survived a split summer this year and it went well. So it's easier just to start there and tack on a few extra days to the split. I will save enough money to come back in two weeks to each trip.

I think the current plan is for Trip 1 to use points for the trip there and pay for the trip back. Hopefully rack up enough points with a sign-up bonus to pay for the roundtrip for Trip 2. 

That's where I am now.

I was already planning to double up on therapy for the summer anyway (at least as of this morning). Just for the summer of 2x/week = $1600

For 52 weeks (or 1x/week for a year), that'll cost $2,080.  Or about $80/pp. Yowzers!

How much is my life worth?

Well the goal is to live all of 2023, so I think following that, I have to do it.

I was going to skimp and just shoot for $1,000 so that I'm not pressured to figure out what to do with the money. But if nothing else, I can get physical therapy. But this is like buying a gym membership. I bought it, now I have to spend it!