Thurs, Nov 3, 2022, I still love the holidays

 Dear Diary,

Sean officially ended things with me yesterday. He said he'd "prefer" to cut things off but to let him know if I'm in Seattle again. I drafted a few text messages last night and even this morning. Trying to play it off, make it seem like not a big deal. Part of me wanted to work the book and just re-book for another 2 months in Seattle. It would be about $4500 for 2 months plus food and airfare. 

It would be a fun experiment. I would probably go to Hawaii with Eve. I could hang out with Michelle and them. I could go to the other Murder Mystery party.

I could date Dan again. 

I wouldn't be in Green Lake though. The cheapest places that made sense were in Downtown/SLU. 

I stopped taking those St. John's Wort supplements. It was mostly a placebo effect anyway.

I can't believe Thanksgiving is in just a few weeks! It's hard to be sad when the holidays are around the corner!

I've been plotting my trip next summer. I think I'll have to get back on the dating apps. Dan and Sean will just be back-up. 

It was nice to wake up just before 9a naturally. The sun is out. No alarm and I slept through the night. No complaints.

I went to pickle ball yesterday and it was fun. I think we were hitting easy balls, so I don't know what an actual game is like at a competitive level but it's definitely less cardio than tennis. 

There's a happy hour with the old ladies on Friday and then I might just go to church for my 3rd event of the week.

I really hate talking to Frenemy about boys. I just don't know why I keep doing it. I'm just used to having different girlfriends. My counselors keep asking me if I have friends, and I keep saying No. I just can't consider Frenemy that much of a friend. Like a fun work colleague I guess. 

Even Eve was a better girlfriend to me and I've only known her 2 months. 

I went ahead and removed my new Seattle number off the phone so I can stop anxiously awaiting someone to text me. I did forward all messages to my email, just in case. But I won't hold my breath. 

Accomplishments:

- Slept through the night

- Woke up without an alarm

- Went to pickleball

- Did a CE yesterday (only 4 to go)

They are using machinery outside my window right now and the noise is grating on my nerves. Today could be a biscuit day but I don't feel like leaving the house.