Yeah, that's it

 So my workday is winding down. And yeah, Secret Love, that's how it ends. I was planning to play hookie from Softball tonight and loaded up on some snacks. Then they cancelled it. That's way less fun, haha. 

It's cold and wet, perfect snuggle weather. I got chips and popcorn and Chinese food. I didn't think twice about getting the Low Sodium chips but yeah you can tell the difference. 

I'm trying hard not to harp on the datelessness of tomorrow but alas it's a thing that is happening. I mean really, this ended in 2021 so this is residual. There was never meant to be a date for my birthday.

I have resets through out the year, anyway. My birthday is one. Then 4th of July (Independence Day), then my half birthday, then the end of the calendar year. So I'm rounding the dating saga to 2021. 

All good things for 2022.

It's all a blur anyway. I'm rewinding to the part where Dapple said he wasn't interested in starting anything long-distance and I unmatched him. So the last 3 months never happened.

Moving on..

I forced myself to do some things on my to-do list that I was saving for next week.

I put in sick time, I logged volunteer hours, I did my performance goals; I got lunch; I registered for CE credits for the year; I bought an iPhone charger for my work phone; I finally bought my washer and dryer!!; I updated my W4 withholding to withhold for an extra $10k as that's about how much I had from interest and capital gains in 2021; I originally had $5k but decided to up it.

All of that took until about 1p today. 

What if I just decided to love my life. I'm trying to enjoy the time with myself and just pretend I'm in early retirement because really what would be different? 

Maybe after March is over, I'll reach back out to the food pantry. Right now, the weather has been grey and I just want to be indoors.

I lost whatever momentum I had for going out and socializing and meeting people. In theory, I have the next 20 years. 

But imagine a life free from worrying about Secret Love! A life free from worrying about friends! 

I almost wish I could get into fitness or travel. I've had the most free time I've ever had and I can't seem to figure out how to fill it. So maybe I just float down lazy river.