Resetting a bit.

 So I got the gas I need for tomorrow's trek to town for a dentist appointment. The bank bonuses have kinda got me down. The big $900 chase one that I've been looking forward to since Jan doesn't even seem like it's going to work because I can't even open the Savings account.

Because the amount is so high, I'm going to try to find a branch tomorrow when I go to town. I thought there was one in my town, but it either shut down or never existed.

So if that doesn't work. I'm skunked. Saved that coupon code for nothing.

I think to get over the weird feelings about paying $800 to file a tax return, I'm just going to make $800 my goal for these bank bonuses.

I'm not getting far with them. And we already know my saga with the credit card bonuses.

And did I mention the softball guy doesn't have a team this year.

And when I went outside, it looks like it's pollen season. I thought I had until April.

So, if March and April make it difficult to go outside because of allergies. And it's pretty cold in January and December. And it's pretty darn hot from May to September...what month is left? February, October, and November? 

Wow! 

So yeah I think with Turbo Tax, I wanted to take some time to think about the return, and also to hack it by filing it myself or using that to check against the HR block return. But I felt a little pressure with his little face right there pressuring me to move this along. And also I knew if I didn't do it, I'd be stuck in indecision...so now which one is worse - indecision or regret. Grr. It's jus money, MERJ. Says, the poor people. (I did speak up and get 20% off, so there's that!)

But $800 just stinks.

I have about $500 in bank bonuses so far. I just need one or two more to pay out, and I'll be good.

Not only will it help to salve this weird tax prep fee but also to focus that a little more and kind of pump the brakes.

Having to try multiple times, to call CSRs, and just unnecessary frustration isn't all that fun anymore.

So as quickly as I started this year, I think I'm dipping out of churning for awhile. 

All I really have for March to May is sitting my happy but home, avoiding work, and eating my snacks. Found out another data point that makes me believe the 4% raise wasn't to get me closer to market rate...everyone got it. Oh well, I'm still happy about it. 

And I don't feel pressure to achieve. Phew.

I'm not sure why things aren't really working right for me right now. I literally only pursued things I've done before, but this year is determined to do me in. 

C'est la vie.