I need more single friends

 In case I didn't know it for the last 8 years - I need more single friends! I got left behind on the womanhood = wifehood + motherhood train!

So remember how I've been watching Below Deck on my 1 month of Peacock I purchased? Well, I contacted casting to see how much it costs to charter a yacht on the show after reading online that it's deeply discounted. Well, it's only like $40k for the Med and Sailing Yacht series. That's a steal if chartering a yacht is really like $100k.

While it's a steal even split across 8 people, I don't know 8 people! Let alone 8 single people with $8k to spend. How rude! It would be about $8k because tip is like $20k.

So yeah, first world, single girl problems I guess.

I've now turned on my phone for the remainder of the week. The apps are pretty daunting. I have maybe 1.5 viable dates for this weekend. Playing it cool is so tedious. 

It's so ridiculous because eventhough I have low investment in these dates, I expect them to come guns blazing. Silly girl.

I'm nervous somehow:

- This meeting today

- This deliverable that's up in the air

- Mentor meeting

- mass email I sent

- um...spending a summer in seattle

- my brother house sitting

- my brother house sitting #2...yes, it's that nerve wracking

- my brother not house sitting

- do I want to leave my car key with brother to start car

- does a car really need to be started if you're gone for a few weeks

- what's the bigger risk giving my brother the task of starting my car vs leaving it idle for weeks

- single girl in the city and all its unknown future outcomes

- what happens now

Also is boundaries the word of the day. I love that mental health is being de-stigmatized but like most things, now that it's popular, it's being weaponized. 

The people in therapy expect everyone else in their life to suddenly be like them and adopt their perspective. Hey, human, I've been interacting with you this way for 30+ years, but I've gone to a few sessions of therapy and my therapist who only hears 1 side of the story says I should do x,y,z... I'm not going to tell you any of those conversations, but I will expect you to act accordingly. Cool, bro.

I can't believe it's only Tuesday. I felt like I lived a whole week yesterday. I think because I was waiting by my email for a response from a stakeholder. Lame.

Also, now officially both of my Seattle dates have turned into duds. I'd like to go on a couple dates with new people before reaching back out to them. I don't want them to set the tone of the trip.