This effing guy!

 Is there a joy monitor?!

I swear.

I finally get excited about seeing someone and then he disappears off the face of the earth.

In one regard, I saw this coming, but geez I didn't even get to see him before he ghosts me. Now I've already signed myself up to go on a date with Handsy to washout the Iranian.

And I didn't even get to meetup with the Iranian.

It literally feels like every other guy that disappears. I've reread our messages, and I'm this close from deleting it.

I'm coming up with mental contingency plans. How did I get here?

He seemed like a sure thing. 

Did he think I was being serious when I mentioned "Dave from Bumble"? But we are not in a relationship. Gosh, I always think I'm playing it so cool and I'm back here...again.

Sheesh!

He said he was free to hang out Monday. We texted last night but made no concrete plans for today (Monday). I said I would be free after 12noon. I didn't hear from him before or after noon, so I messaged him a Hi around 12:30p. It's now 2p.

What the actual heck!

I'm annoyed, and I want to vent.

I wanted a summer romance, and he was my first choice. I'm so glad I get to leave this nonsense behind when I leave Seattle.

He is more hot and cold than I anticipated. Strange.

Wow, dudes really are all the same.

I'm just gonna continue to drift along. 

I don't think I'm going to make plans for Mon-Wed. I need me time away from this anxiety. Lesson learned. 

I'm still going to go along with whatever he wants to do because the end goal is still there and then he can move out of the rotation. His messages and email get deleted and he's removed as a contact in my phone.

I hope he texts tonight, but we shall see.