Does it mean anything?

 So I went to book my lodging for my trip. Yep, I was going to Seattle for 6 weeks. After vacillating and vacilatting, I finally decided to have #morefun.

But now, I guess the temporary card declined the purchase for my rental. I guess it only allows certain purchases. That's lame!

So it makes me feel like I shouldn't go. I think I also jinxed myself because historically as soon as I say my dreams outloud they don't come true. And I shared my plans with a colleague and the next instant, my card gets declined.

I don't know what it all means or if it means anything.

But I had the same thought yesterday when I was trying to book the flight on AA. I kept making mistakes and had to make the booking a couple times. 

I thought usually when this happens, I need to stop and look around. Last night, I thought it was just because I could save $50 by not paying to upgrade to non-refundable.

And then shortly after that, I was waiting for the customer service lady to get back to me about splitting the payment and then a few hours later, late at night, the unit I wanted was snatched up. Really?!

So then I thought, maybe I shouldn't go.

But I was like no, I will not be deterred.

Now this!

Yesterday's events made me even more determined to go because I DON'T BELIVE IN SIGNS!

They've literally never helped or guided me. They just confuse me.

My brain is like too stressed to even make sense of this.

Do I just charge it to a different card?

I mean trying to get the miles was just a perk to try to offset the cost. It wasn't really my game plan. So do I just let it derail the whole trip?

I already packed and cleaned. It was a lot of hours thinking about this. 

The thing with charging it to another card is that when you go to pay, they itemize the 3.2% credit card fee. So now it feels like I'm taking out a loan.

But I don't think I can scrounge up $6500 today. I mean I guess I technically could but it would be pulling from accounts earmarked for other things. 

I'm so glad I didn't tell anyone about FIRE before I crested the milestone, if only briefly. I'd probably be xyz...I'm so afraid to even say it.

So it looks like I could scrounge up the cash from my Hub account and my House Maintenance Fund. But it would pretty much wipe out the account until like 2 pay days.

Or I could just charge it to a different card.

What to do?

Does it mean anything?

I've spent most of the day thinking about this instead of doing my work. 

(several minutes later...)

Meh, once the dust settles, I think I'm still going to go.

At this point, I'm just wasting money anyway.

#morefun