Some Notes on Seattle, 2 Weekends In

 Hi, friends!

Just came back from taking a Water Taxi to meet a date for kayaking in the cold deep water. I was not prepared. It seemed like such a great idea. Getting out of the house, doing some adventurous. 

But kayaking fully clothed in cold water was not that fun. My date was perfectly fine but I really didn't want to capsize.

I think I realized for me part of water sports is being so hot, you want to get in the water not afraid of being bone chilling cold. 

So yeah, there goes my plan of kayaking this week. Boo.

What I realized on my solo walk home was that Seattle is a great destination spot, but it's not home for me. I feel like it's a great place to do a thing - whether it's live for a few years, or get a good job and save some money, visit seasonally, or even dare I say nurture a relationship with someone. But for me, I don't think it could be home. My home base is a better choice for me at this point. So at least that's lesson learned and affirmed. 

I'm definitely glad I came and even though I accomplished what I came out to do a little early, I'm glad I'm staying as long as I am. I can leave confidently on the 20th having felt like I explored and reflected and assessed. 

Also, Seattle is not a place I would come to and live in the suburbs. If I moved to a big city, I would want to live in the big city. Otherwise, if I'm commuting everywhere via car, I can just stay at Home Base. 

On dating. 

Well I got Date 1 of 3 out of the way for the week. It's a pretty nice way to start the week I'd say. I tried to sleep over the weekend, but honestly I'm feeling pretty tired today still. I did a load of laundry this week. Yay, me!

So that's 2 Weekends of Dating Done and 3 to go. Phew!

Work will pull focus this week because I've been assigned to a project with a 14 day turnaround. It will be good to have that in the background keeping me busy, so I'm not lamenting over boys.

Here's the thing I gotta keep reminding myself of- just because something was not well received by 1 guy, doesn't mean I have to change it. But it's so tempting to want to do that, and I stumble with it all the time.

My intention is to take a long break from hunting until Thursday after 5p local time. I need a mental breather. 

It's funny having to constantly re-assess and actually consider these profiles as real humans with feelings, and not robots designed to anticipate and fill my every wish or desire. I swing from looking for a Disney prince who will rescue and exalt me to looking at them as predators. When really it's more of a case of... men...they're just like us! Haha. 

I will say I too have fallen prey to lazy swiping. It's exactly what I thought would happen when you've been on the apps too long. You have too many war stories, that you become tactical and detached to keep going. 

I'm looking forward to going home. I'm sure once I'm home, I'll miss the 60-70 degree weather, but I should be dated-out by then. That's kind of the point. Eat too much ice cream that you never want to eat ice cream again.