Good Guy Gone Bad

 I wish I were less reactive. Where do these confident women get their confidence. Is dating this game? Does it have to be? Can you exit stage right when it stops feeling good, at least initially? Or do you stay and ask questions?

You shouldn't be afraid to ask for what you want right? Or should you be delicate? 

One of the devotionals was saying how you say things matters. Fine. It does.

But should it be this mentally taxing just to think of what to say.

I think I'm officially being gaslighted by Slow Fade.

I thought I had gained some power but I gave it back when I messaged him before the 30 days I'd told myself I'd wait so that I could sort out my thoughts.

But then I really want this over with by March. I can't be thinking about this during my birthday month!! I don't want to be secretly planning a trip to Seattle that will never happen. 

The dance of dating is a little anxiety-inducing. 

Anxious Brain was right to have unmatched him at the first sign of trouble. Hopeful Brain why do you keep getting us in trouble, you keep stirring up this anxiety storm for no good reason. Give me 1 good thing in our entire life that has come out of your hopeful dreams and magical wishes? Nothing but heartache. 

I'm ready to quit all the apps I spent an evening downloading and populating. I thought I could do it for 3 months. I really wanted to commit to that, but I'll be lucky to make it to the end of this month. 

Let's just see if I can make it at least 3 days. Today is Day 2.