If you change the way you look at things

 When I was watching the many seasons of Relative Race, I heard a quote for the first time - if you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change. 

Turns out this week is going to be hard as well.

Woke up frustrated and anxious.

I checked email - obviously nothing. 

What was I hoping for - an email to make sense of all these feelings? An email to say I wasn't forgotten. That I was appreciated. That I will be missed. That she's not harboring resentment that I'm leaving. An email that says I was wrong - these weird vibes were all in my head. An email of cheerful greeting and camaraderie from my immediate team. Instead of these cool greetings. 

I'm still hoping I'll get some kind of text or call or message from Old Boss.

I'm just mad that I got duped. I thought we were friends. 

For whatever reason, whoever it was that removed me from the Box folder has really stuck a dagger in my heart. Why? Why'd you do it? Who did it? 

And remember those dumb reports that my co-Manager never ran. Well someone else is running them now. Luck? Or did my manager take yet another thing off her plate. 

I feel like a woman scorned.

I need some plans for all this free time or this sorrowfulness is bound to continue.

At least when fall comes I'll be able to sleep longer. 

Took a short walk to the end of the street. Didn't really help. I actual have personal errands I could do but I just don't want to.