Yesterday was a gossip filled day. And it brought me a lot of joy! eeeeeeeeeeee!
I miss having my people. You know the ones who just go along with you for funsies. I benefit from having a person. I don't necessarily want to fall in love anymore, I just want a person.
I am 100% disappointed I didn't get the warm fuzzy good bye envisioned. My Boss Meant a lot to me and it's really confusing to know whether or not I meant as much to her.
Except for the cool birthday present, I don't think I did.
A part of me is still hoping I'll get asked back in 6 months, but honestly just within the last 2 days they've transitioned quite well without me. That sucks.
The more distance I try to put between us mentally, the more I want to go back.
Having nothing to do today certainly isn't helping, but I'm 100% glad I took the day off. I haven't made too many good decisions lately, it seems, but this one was 100% the right one!
I am feeling a little bad about not taking the meeting with my manager's Favorite Friend, i.e. Prince Charming, but I think it's less about helping them and more me feeling cancelled.
I was hoping I was misremembering the interaction with my immediate team, but nope, their response to my moving on was underwhelming compared to what I've seen them do for others.
She was right not to increase my salary if my other teammates are truly more valuable.
It's just facing the hard truth, it's hard.
I hate unfinished business. I need data to inform future decisions and when it's unclear I might make wrong conclusion and misinform future decisions.
Current goal is to respond to any last emails after 5p, but I'm still checking like every 5 minutes.
So there might be a lot of posts today.
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