Thursday morning check-in

 So I'm sitting outside and I love it! I woke up looking forward to it. I even used an extension cord because I was out of battery. 

I feel like the people on House Hunters who are always talking about having their coffee out on their porch our outdoor area. Yay! This is a part of my day that I enjoy.  I want outdoor space and furniture in Newtown.

I noticed, duh, some parts of the day are cooler than others. So the mornings, I'm in the shade and in the evening, the shade comes back.

Last night was another fitful night of sleep. There was a lot of coughing. It's either my pills or eating apples and peanut butter 2 hours before bed. It was not great.

I think I had 1 good day of no heartburn symptoms this week.

I have real work tasks to do but I'm pretending I don't. For a moment yesterday, I started to daydream about having a life outside of work. Like being retired. Part of me keeps thinking I need to work because I at least need the distraction. But now I'm starting to wonder, if things will be different once work is removed completely. 

Will my mindset shift? I don't know. 

Real retirement has been hard to simulate because the time off feels finite so you want to use it a different way. 

Anyway, that little blip of 'what-if' was interesting.

In other news, I'm observing more and more how I don't ask for what I want and still grappling with what I want to do about it. 

The more I hear other people lament their change in circumstance when their partner is absent, the more I want to scream - WHAT ABOUT ME!!! That's my reality 24/7. No support on any front!

It's amazing. But for the first time in awhile, I was watching couple-y stuff and didn't long for it. There's something about eliminating that unknown that feels calming. 

I think it's just an adjustment after that intense need that came out of nowhere. 

Something has bitten my back but I refuse to go indoors!

Okay, the house sale money has caused a bit of a conundrum. I know I want to buy brokered CDs, cuz the plan is to keep it liquid until I retire and/or find a reasonable housing budget. And also earn at least 5% interest.

However, for tracking purposes, I also wanted to be able to nickname my account so I don't forget. But Broker 1 doesn't allow that. And it also wouldn't let me schedule the transfer, so it has to be manual.

Broker 2 does allow nicknames and would let me schedule a transfer. But I would need to open yet another account, which I really didn't want to do. 

I mostly want to move these funds out of regular circulation and I need them to stop showing up as cash on my budget app so that I can have a better idea of how much Cash I have in regular circulation. Note- it's only meant to be 10k.  So now, I'm rethinking my plan. For now, maybe I'll just do a 6 month CD and see how this year plays out. 

Plan for today

- Therapy

- Might go get some bread

- Do my PT exercises

If I come out again, I might do some work.