Saturday a.m. check-in

 I showered! And flossed and brushed my teeth! Unprompted! I just felt like it.

This has to be a good sign. I've been in Interim Town for a week now, and it still feels really good. Tomorrow will be the real test. Although when I looked back on my mood app, there haven't been Sunday tears in a few weeks. Although I felt like there were, maybe I didn't document it.

So it might be a combo of a few things - no more home ownership; steps taken to New Town; and magic beans. Oh, well.

I had a lot of thoughts last night of things I wanted to write about, but now it escapes me. 

Also, dogs are gross.

I read this book by Helen Hoang who identifies as an author on the spectrum. It re-inforced for me that I do have some spectrum tendencies, and I'm learning to be okay with it.

Some observations:

- I interacted with 2 committee members heavily yesterday. And instead of being annoyed, I actually came out of the conversations fairly peacefully. Instead of being upset that people aren't who I need them to be, I realized I can just take what I need from them and leave the rest. I needed help with some work stuff and a potential opportunity outside of work, and I got that from one member. The other one mostly just provided a distraction in what was going to be an otherwise dull Friday.

So that worked out. Ordinarily, I would have been more bothered that they weren't that invested or inquisitive about my selling and moving. But oh well. Now that it's done, there is a secret pride to knowing I did it by myself.

But it was again very telling that real estate investment is not something I would enjoy. There are just parts of caretaking that I don't enjoy. Even of myself. And I can recognize that as a limitation. That was one of the themes from the Helen Hoang book as well. It's part of the guilt I felt taking care of Aunty MERJ, but I think with time I can release it. It's not a strength. It's not something I enjoy. And I know there's more to life than doing things you enjoy, but those are the reasons why it was hard for me. 

Being a human is hard. It's why I've done my part to stop making more humans. There's nothing more I can do. (I mean I guess start the revolution...but I'm not going to do that.)

I'm starting to see my future come more into focus. Nothing concrete yet. But I feel like I have new places for the data. I think it will revolve around a lot on me and care taking of me. Doing things I enjoy and refrain from looking for answers to all the tough questions.

I'd also like to celebrate I have been more comfy in my independence as of late. Yay!

Some new decisions:

- A work trip is coming up. And through a series of unfortunate events, I got approved for train travel. But from Interim Town, it's a base trip of 10 hours + whatever heat delay. So I'm looking at a 12 hour trip. After some thought, I decided to just buy a plane ticket. It's at most about $300 but I'm willing to absorb the cost to make the trip more pleasant. And even though it's not a travel expense covered by work, the money they pay me does cover it. I'm even thinking of cashing in my 22k points for one leg of the trip just to get rid of them. Holding on to points and gift cards just make me anxious. I'm also getting out of saving consumer items for the apocalypse. I'm not reusing paper towels and other consumable goods for the time being. 

So this is definitely not the redemption gold I would hope for but it solves an immediate need. (That being said, I am sleeping on it.)

- I also decided to go ahead and book my event ticket for New Town. I was unsure if I wanted to fly or drive. But when you plug it into The Algorithm, driving by that time seems less likely considering I have to be in Interim Town until July 15. So I'll be doing that later today. 

Also, even though I'm not participating in any of the social events around me because I haven't met anyone yet, it's nice to see people walking about. I look for inspiration, and this helps. I am on the ground floor so I see people walking all day. And I can see people playing in the park. I am someone who benefits from models and examples. So this helps. 

Also, also. I am still battling wicked acid reflux but taking the magic beans with food has helped a lot. I don't feel the sloshy gut and the fire in my throat as constantly. I also started taking sips of water throughout the day rather than big gulps. That helps to mitigate the burn temporarily. 

So not much on tap for today. I'm going to buy my event ticket. I might start updating my financial tracker spreadsheet in prep for Q2 check-in. 

I really hope to find a resident lounge to have a TLC day tomorrow. 

Oh, my phone screen yesterday went really well! I fully expect to hear from them in the next couple of weeks.

I have some corn on the cob I'm really excited about eating because I have been cooking it in the microwave. So you get a fun treat after just 3 minutes. 

That's all for now.

Yay to fat check over home ownership!!!