Meh

 I gave in to the feeling. I texted Last Boy a picture of my Hebrew Book. I want some attention and accolades, darn it! 

I think I know this connection is dead on arrival and I don't want to let it go. So many feelings this weekend. I think it's hormonal but I can't know for sure.

Is it weird that I feel nothing for other people right now. I just want my feelings cherished and needs met.

I looked up some housing on the Short Term Rental App. And I was right. I have 3 options across 3 different cities. 

This is when I get stumped. How do I make a decision? What am I trying to achieve? Does it need to be this complicated. I find momentary comfort in the fact that it doesn't matter, but go back to being stuck in a tizzy. 

I think with my lead gone this week and the cat out of the bag that I don't have much work, I don't even feel that motivated to log-in. Should I?

Not sure what I want to do with the rest of my day other than sit here and be grumpy. 

Can you imagine if I was trying to give up on a drug? How hard that would be? 

Does any of it matter anyway? No one is keeping score. No one even knows I'm this crazy. That's why being an open book is a bad thing. If no one knows your crazy ways, it's easier to forget you were ever that person.