Do I call it now?

 So yeah, I've been down pretty much all week. I tried to distract myself but I can't help but be anxious every time my phone buzzes.

When do I get off this dating merry go round? Why do I keep playing a game with no rules.

Do I try a new city? Or do I come back to Seattle?

Do I even want this or do I think I should?

Am I too basic for Seattle?

I was hoping the cost I've spent this year chasing this disguised dream would shock me but it didn't. I think because I'm surrounded by spenders. 

I don't really want to go home but I can't stay here.

I have 3 days left. Weird!!

I can't believe I did it. I came and I stayed!

And I had a summer romance!! Let's just rewrite history.

Now I get to putz around.

I do admire all these dudes and their ability to make friends and community. 

Do I over complicate things?

Oh well.

I'm still torn with trying to save more. I look at my dwindling balances and I think I should be buying into this market, but I can't seem to be bothered much more than that.

I'll get one more fat paycheck and maybe after shoring up my checking and savings, I'll have about $1k to throw in my taxable brokerage. After that, I think I'll bring my 401k contributions back up (from 6% to 18%).

Ideally I want to get some laundry done and tidy up this place for my Monday departure... but we shall see.