Tulsa, Tulsa, Tulsa

 OMG.

I got Tulsa on my mind. I've been going through the mental exercise...yet again....of what I do if I get to go for a year. 

The biggest issue is really giving up my cheap housing! 

I looked far and wide for this housing and it's so hard to give it up. I don't want to say it's the crux of my early retirement plan, but it kind of is!

I will never find $850/mon housing again! Ever! I sometimes feel like it's my crowning achievement of FIRE. 

So yes, if I was renting, I think it'd be easier to leave because duh...who rents two places. I could always come back right. 

But the fact that I have this cheap housing is only because I bought this place. Ugh. 

I guess the magical thinking in me wants to just go all in on Tulsa and finally make a move. When I think about the digital nomad experience it does not spark joy. It sparks scarcity and that uber frugal mindset. That makes me anxious and fills me with dread. I've moved on from that place. I don't want to pressure myself into saying I want to build community, but I kind of do. 

I just don't know what to want.

Anyway, it was on my mind for many hours last night and I woke up this morning thinking about it. 

I even tried Pascal's Wager.

Keep House vs Sell House  x Stay in Tulsa vs Move back to NC

And keeping the house was the least risky.  Because the worst that happens is I sell the house a year later. 

But it's really the effort I guess. I have to maintain the house for a year. Financially, the program offers $10k which significantly offsets the cost of carrying the house for a year. Win! But mentally, having to worry about it. I imagine checking up on it and returning every 3 months. I guess I could always just have the cleaners come and do a deep clean before I move back in. That would work actually. Money solves problems!

That's the easiest choice and in the spirit of financial independence... I don't have to choose! 

Obviously, if I were renting, it'd be no big deal. I'd pack up and sell my stuff. I, honestly wouldn't even bother with the few pieces of furniture I had since they're giving me so much money to live. 

Maybe I'd give myself like $1k to set up shop again - a bed, desk, couch. Those are the staples. 

But I'm already going into survival mode. Just cutting out all the noise and just trying to solve the problem.

In related news, I added Tulsa to a possible FIRE locale. OMG. What a farce. I looked up Meetup events, and maybe I could find 1 a month to go. Which technically, isn't more than I have here. It's just the ones I have here are not my age group. 

I think those YouTubers are overselling the experience by a wide margin.  The biggest selling point for my current living situation - mild winter; $850/mon housing; simple life.