Who needs signs when you have metrics?

 In a casual salary conversation with a committee member we realized we were about $65k away from our next salary goal (aspirational). Since when I looked at what it would cost in my life now to live in Seattle, I came up with around $60k/year budget.

So just without thinking too hard, I would need a second job or a flux of income of about $65k/year to make a move to Seattle make sense.

So until that happens, it doesn't really warrant a second thought.

Either I can make that happen by applying to jobs or it doesn't happen and I stay put. That's it. No uncovering rocks or looking for signs. 

As for the Fall trip, I still searched today and the rental is on sale from 5% off to 10% off. But since I'm not in acute distress right now, I don't feel too motivated to upset my chi. 

So yeah, I'm already starting to look to budgeting and life plans for 2023 but I'm starting there. If I want to move to Seattle, I need to increase my income by about $65k.

Having fun in the summer there is optional.

I met with 3 therapists this week. I'm loving the additional emotional support, let me tell you! Is this what it's like to have friends!

I think as for now, I'm willing to continue to explore the CBT, since at least that's finite and structured. This idea of belief systems is pretty interesting. I just never considered that people can encounter the same situations and have completely different emotional responses. 

As for the other 2. I think I'm willing to let black therapist go after about 6 sessions (rather than 8). And white therapist, maybe 8 sessions. 

It'd probably be more helpful if I were actively making friends, but I'm not feeling particularly motivated to do that here in my town. And since I'm not actively working towards a move to Seattle, as in going there this fall to try to make friends/relax/get away, it doesn't help in that situation either.

I think more sessions with white therapist will be good for re-engaging in white spaces. Ugh. 

That's all for now.