Tues, Sep 27, 2022, And the shine wears off

 I can't express how much happiness making a plan and especially a budget makes me. It's one area of my life where I can establish some order. And it feels awesome.

I'm a bit discombobulated because I'm avoiding a couple people at work. So my brain is distracted because I fear I'm going to get caught. 

Diary, sometimes I just don't like work. I hate Bruno. I don't like 1:1s with my manager. I feel like it's this verbal minefield. It's a game I don't want to play.

I can't express enough how happy I am that I finally decided to take some time off. Talk about boiling the frog slowly. 

I didn't even think I needed time off but I took it just to get out of some work and avoid some people. That's my life, dodging and weaving.

I hope you continue to be my favorite secret keeper. 

She asked me what projects I want to work on- presumably out of 3, but later in the conversation revealed there is only 1 project that really has any upcoming work. So why ask?

Eye roll.

Had another interaction with Bruno. She's nuts and I hate working with her. But you can't say those things, well she can. 

It seems everyone at work can get away with being pigheaded but somehow can still come back with smiles.

I'm just me. 

I did just have the brilliant idea to take the trash out. So I took out 2 bags of trash and 3 boxes from the meal kits. In another life, I would've found a use for the ice packs, but unfortunately, I only have this life! So it was an easy choice.

I was especially glad to see that the trash room is just 2 giant commercial trash bins, not that chute nonsense. That makes life a lot easier because I was in no mood to break down boxes since they kind of had stuff in them.

Admittedly, I'm so discombobulated I keep forgetting what I want to do today or the rest of the week. I think I keep waiting to be found out. I keep waiting for any of the handful of people I'm dodging to find me.

I just have to make it to Monday then I'm free.

After 2 years, I'm finally taking a vacation I can look forward to! Eventhough, I'm technically not going anywhere different because I'm already here.

I think one reason I don't enjoy the 1:1s with my manager because I'm never sure how what I say is going to come back and bite me in the butt.

I was kind of hoping the 2 ladies for trivia tonight would cancel because I realized I don't actually like the anxiety that comes with planning things. Stupid girl!

Oh well. I just sent them a text. It would mean I get the afternoon free. I want to go to the Grocery Store Outlet. Now that I'm pretty much going back to NC for the last 2 months of the year, I'm not sure what food stuff to buy.

Maybe I'll go to Whole Foods and Trader Joe's here just to see what they have. I mostly just go to see what snacks they have more than anything. 

Well my new friends still want to go to trivia! That made me excited even though I was dreading it before.

Eventhough it was kind of late in the night, I don't have much to be attentive for tomorrow. 

And now, the organizer for the pumpkin patch meetup on Saturday has agreed to pick me up! Double yay!

Too happy for words. Should I eat the apple or mango. I have 10 hours to kill!