Day 1 of Not Caring

 Ugh! I had so many great thoughts but they have all dissipated 1 hour into the work week. 

For whatever reason, the thing my Brain wanted to focus on this weekend was salaries and promotions. 

I made up the salary spreadsheet and had wild ideas of combating wage parity that way. I really wanted some confirmation that what I believed was true - My Buddy was making more than me and so were the the other project managers in our department. 

But this morning, I realized this is not aligned with my... 

Question Nothing

Accept all of it

Love everything!

Mantra.

I literally planned to put in either our group chat or individual chat..When do you think you're going to be promoted to Associate Director - spring or end of year? 

But I have settled wayyyyyyyyyyy down!

Part of me still wants to know what the other managers are making, but My Buddy can't be my target. 

I did my best not to ask questions but in the 9a meeting I did question some random work that we've tasked ourselves with but no one is questioning. As expected, my question did not lead to a different outcome. The more aware I am of this I think it will help me to temper my feelings. 

Actually reading some other FIRE blogs helps me manage my feelings. I like hearing how other people navigate their world.

It was helpful to read blackfireblog to be reminded that other people's success don't take away from my own (that is still a hard pill to swallow for me but working on it); so I have to just let My Buddy ride her success train and wave her on.  

It's just nice to read about other people just airing their grievances with work. I like reading about people reaching their milestones. And oh the numbers! I'm so grateful that A Purple Life and Root of Good posted their numbers because it gives me so much perspective! 

And reading the case study on Frugalwoods about the reader in LA who just expressed she was never a dream job kind of girl. My thoughts exactly! The goal was never the fancy title for me, it was just financial stability and when I learned of it - early retirement.  The fancy title and bigger salary just became side tracks to financial stability. I've never been one of those people who understood people who were proud to say they've been working since they were 13. What? Why?! 

I just never knew Early Retirement was a concept to pursue. But I'm so glad I did!

So it was good to get realigned by reading the stories of strangers on the internet. 

As I'm half-listening to our big team meeting, I realize there's not much about the role that interests me anymore. I might be over-correcting.  I am. But it was good to read all the internet stories this weekend and just be reminded of what my baseline goals are.