I realize I stay in the shadows of hope. I don't dare to dream - not anymore. But maybe I'm a little high right now. About 3 times a year, I experience these bouts of unwavering hope. I feel that literally anything is possible despite all evidence to the contrary. I am having one of those moments right now. I'm just so happy and hopeful. Okay, maybe not so happy and maybe not the full moment.
Regardless, last night I wondered what my life could look like if things turned out the way I wanted. Mind you this is very much a realistic list - no big dreams. Not at my age, not with the life-luck I've had.
WHAT GOOD LOOKS LIKE... possibly.. in my life..
#1 Get the PRA / Clinical Writer role with my current employer after Bonus Day and by Jun 2021
#2 Get an offer of $165k/yr (base) + > 20% bonus target (I actually don't even know what a good ask is for this)
#3 Get to stay Work-from-home
#4 The role I get is a great fit! Which looks like (but not limited to):
- good flow (matches my skill set perfectly)
- "clinic hours" (i.e. 8 hours/day or less)
- I'm a top performer with minimal effort and frustration
- no more groupwork (A Purple Life said it best here Jobs Suck Because they're Never Ending Groupwork)
- minimal creative storytelling required (i.e. I can tell the truth without anxiety and other people are able to tell me the truth without coded language)
- minimal conversational meetings (you know the ones where the work is the "conversation")
#5 One to three healthy friendships (right now the people I talk to regularly just happen to be the only ones that answer the phone)
#6 Active in Science Olympiad/Odyssey of the Mind and other service-related community service organizations (MedCorp or Red Cross)
#7 I reach $500k in savings/investment in 2 years or less
#8 I love the new role and work-life so much that after reaching $500k in 2 years or less, I stay for another 3 years to reach 1 million dollars!
#goals
That feels kind of thrilling to read and write.
How much you want to bet when Monday 9a rolls around at least 3 things happen to threaten either these hopes or my emotional state???
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