Day 1 - This is not a drill people!

This is not a drill people! This is what we practiced!

It was an emotionally tumultuous weekend. 

I went into the meeting a little hateful that my manager scheduled an 8:30am Monday Morning after close of business Friday. Ok, no problem.

I had already prepared a response if she brought up any perceived changes in my attitude or behavior. Luckily, it didn't come up. 

There are quite a few broken processes and people that I need to take ownership of their roles. My manager isn't really dealing with it. She just accepts other teams making us a part of their process but not having us being able to reciprocate this.  Which means more work and more frustration for me. 

But yes, going into this week the knowns in my back pocket are: 

- I am not to to apply for internal postings.

- I am not to apply for external postings. 

- I am not to question anything.

- I am to be agreeable. 

- This is the last job I'll ever have. Wow. 

I think the other unsettling this is just waiting and see how my role will evolve. Inevitably, part of My Buddy's responsibilities will have to be carved out. But when? Is it going to be formal - doubt it.  Is it going to be a lot of guessing games and indirect actions - probably.  Will I be fully trained on any of the new processes - unlikely. Will it be another hot mess of frustration - yes.  When is it going to happen - I'll never be told. 

These are the moments I roll my eyes.

But I did log off at 4:30p. Baby steps. 

And luckily there was not enough opportunity to be hateful and give attitude. We'll see what tomorrow brings.