The End of My Work Life - Day 2

 So yesterday was not a bad day. Today was more normal - that normal mix of fear and anxiety. So far it's been easier than I imagined to leave work at the 8 hour mark. 

No one has noticed and the big difference I thought would be easily observable is hardly noticeable even by me. So maybe I really was the only one running around like a chicken with the head cut off. 

But it's only been 2 days. There are still 9 months left just in this year. 

So in case you just joined, I recently came to the realization that the job I was hired to manage will effectively cease to exist by the end of the year. I spent about 4 days in an anxiety ridden stupor with a myriad of thoughts - none of them good.

Where I landed was here - this will be my last job. I'll either make it to FIRE or the Final Countdown. But I can't be bothered anymore. 

I'm not chasing any more dollars or goals or career milestones. I'm just riding this train to the first station. 

It's also Day 2 of keeping my head down. I think I'm having some cravings - similar to what you experience the first day of a diet. There is one mini project that I want a different outcome for, I've already made 4 attempts to change it, but it's all failed. And as a result, it's become my squeaky wheel.  I have one more thing I want to try unless something else becomes the priority. 

But here's what's different:

- Somehow there was an email me or my boss was supposed to send out about 2 weeks ago. It didn't go out. Usually, I'd feel like the world had ended. But now I only care about 5%. And bonus point for me -I didn't apologize.  I just kept rolling with it. 

- There were 2 questions asked of me that Other Me would have felt terrible for not knowing. Now I only cared 5%. After spending half the morning fixing an error that really was just me entering the wrong log-in, I just had to laugh at myself. 

Other things I've done:

I also started my taxes.

I cashed in some gift cards from a work reward system. My goal was to redeem the max that could be sold for cash. But I still had leftover points, so I got a $10 Amazon Gift card (will need to find a new home for) and a $25 gift card for Bone Fish Grill (which I used about 5 minutes later). 

After eating the Bone Fish Grill dinner, I was reminded whey I don't eat out much, at least not to new places - too many food dangers. I have food sensitivities and it's always a little bit of a gamble if my special instructions will be followed - if I even remember to ask for them.  Well, in life, it's nice to have refreshers.

Things I'm looking forward to 

- Finishing my taxes

- My next Financial Update

- drinking some Tahitian fruit punch.

Bye!