I feel as bad as I thought I'd feel

Remember that internal job I applied for, turns out it was a month ago now. Well, it was kind of a fishy  posting anyway, but I found out it's been filled. 

This is after just talking to the hiring manager who said I'd be a good fit. Wow, really. Then how did I not make it past the screening.

But just as how I'd predicted I'd feel so terrible and flirt with the dark place, that's how I feel. I need to get up so that this feeling can stay in this place and I can walk away from it. 

I was already feeling disgruntled about this job, but to know I have no other opportunities isn't entirely motivating. 

The emotional rollercoaster ride just never ends. 

Man! I didn't even anticipate not getting screened at the very least. I literally have the same qualifications as the woman who just left. 

I'm going to send a thank you note - do I make it hateful and say that I did apply for the opening or just let it go?

But basically now I'm just more mad and frustrated. Will I cry today?

And no one is answering when I try to call.

Mcdonald's it is. What shall I watch.

So that re-affirms that this will be my last job, and the hope that I'll get plucked from obscurity has been effectively removed.