Stressed, tired, and mentally fried

 Yeah, friends, the work stress is real. Even though I'm signing off at a reasonable time, the next day's work is playing over in my mind. I wake up with my heart pounding, and just dread all the work I have to get done this week and the next coming weeks to get these 2 projects out the door.

I'm not sure what to do about it. 

Well at least it's a reminder that long-term work is not for me and so too the prizes of that long-term steady income.

Now in Month 2 of this twilight zone era of my life...it's a bit weird.

Eventhough I wanted to step away from all the mental plotting, I did browse the Doctor of Credit site and got a bit too excited trying to figure out if I can make the Chase bonus work - still can't. And I listened to the new episode of Friends on Fire. After which I stumbled upon this weird podcast where this girl just curses and vents. This is what people are doing, no wonder everyone is doing a podcast. 

Anyway, she echoed some of my sentiments about people not prioritizing their friendships. I feel you, my girl, I feel you! But she was more forgiving and understanding that people should prioritize their boyfriends. I still don't get that, but oh well. 

I'm not sure why having a ton of work makes me want to bury my head in the sand. 

But I've kind of given up on this year, and it's only been about a month. I'm just going to lay down and take it. 

Oh, I watched an episode of Family Karma and did some stalking. Monica the girl on there has this trip to Bali advertised on her Instagram page that you can join. How fun right! One of my relatives is doing something similar with her business. 

Wow, this is what life is now. Just consumerism and influencing. How can we entice you to spend your money. I don't want to be a miser but my lens is definitely clouded. 

I was tempted to go at the $2500 price tag until I realized it didn't include flights! Sheesh. I think in my mind 2-2500 is kind of the price tag I have in mind for a week long escorted trip with flights and meals included! And no hassle of planning.

So that trip is a bit steep. I wonder how much of a kick back she gets for the trip or does she just get her stuff paid for. 

Anyway, it's barely Tuesday and I'm already ready for the weekend.

I'm out of thoughts.