My Personal Mission Statement

 I've been trying to craft a mission and vision statement for my life. I'm sure I had one in between all my words, but I think I might add it to the home page as well.

I'm sure it's always been there just never fully realized. My circumstances haven't changed. And my perspective hasn't changed dramatically. I'm just reacquainting myself with life as it is as opposed to today being a training ground for a different tomorrow. 

The few examples I saw on the internet where very inspirational and had do-gooder vibes. Bump that.

My Personal Mission Statement (as inspired by Dr. Pat's book 'Getting to I Do')

Current: To love myself in a self-centered way and to protect my physical, mental/emotional, and financial wellbeing. 

Future: To be a feminine energy complement to my husband; to share self-centered love with my husband; to prioritize the relationship (over the individual); and to respect my husband's thoughts as he cherishes my feelings.  All the while, I am deep-rooted in self-centered love for myself while I continue to safeguard my physical, mental/emotional, and financial wellbeing. 

My counselor says you can use your anxiety to prep for the future, but after you've done all you can, the rest of the anxiety is wasted 100% on a problem that has less than a 100% chance of occurring. Yes, so even though the stats are grim for a single black woman in her 40s to end up in an interracial marriage, it's not 0%. (Think less than 10% of a 30% subset of the general population.) It's certainly not cause for hope, but it's no more cause for worry or extra anxiety. It's cause for sadness and despair, maybe. 

Nothing's changed as far as my outlook on a long life, but it's a re-realization of what I'd always known to be true but wanted a reason to believe somehow it would be different for me. I was reading some article on Huffpost about a woman in her early 40s who finally gave up on love. I half-expected the I 'gave up...and then.' She shared all of the sentiments I have displayed on this very blog, and I thought wow... this happens to white people too! Wow, I have no reason to despair.

Then she shared two pictures in her post of her and her black friends who were in the same boat.