I Don't Feel Any Better

I feel the same as I did when I went to bed last night. I felt the same at 3a this morning. I feel the same right now.

• I feel defeated.
• I feel discouraged.
• I feel like I let myself down.
• I feel like I've presented a negative impression.
• I feel like I've compromised my integrity. 
• I feel like I'm not doing a good job.
• I'm wondering if people are talking about me.
• Do people think I'm now untrustworthy? How will this come back to hurt me later on? 
• What are they saying about me?
• What do they think?
• What were they thinking during that meeting?
• I feel myself retreating. 
• I want to stay more silent from now on. Instead of speaking up I want to shut up. 
• I feel let down.

I just want yesterday not to have happened. 

And why is it so hard to get my hair done!

What could make this situation better?

- If I could go back in time and not compromise my client's privacy.

- If I knew what the other people in the meeting were thinking. If I knew what they said about me afterwards.

- If I knew what my immediate team members thought of the meeting and what was said to my manager. 

What can I do to make this situation better both for me, my reputation, (my working relationship with my team?) ? 

I don't know.