Wed check-in

 With so many things in flux, I might have to resort to doing these daily check-ins. Prob twice a day.

How was your day?

- Learning some lessons from all my friends that are parents. I am going to lovingly parent myself. I'm a single parent. I am getting ready for back to school. I'm going to plan a Back to School Bash aka Cabo. Get some new sneakers. Get my hair done.

I will go on some fall trips. Take a family trip. Have a Christmas vacation. 

I'm going to sign up for some extracurricular activities. Yay!

I am digging the back to school theme.

I need to make all my appointments. 

I'm excited I have some leads for all the things I have to do.

So next Tuesday will be a busy day of appointments and errands.

Y'all! I booked my trip to Cairo last night. I had a moment of celebration and I just did it. It was under the target price and I thought why not. This Newtown trip is really happening. But really, the deposit was $300 and I don't have to pay the full thing for another 2 weeks. I thought that was a fair gamble. Ad honestly since June, the prices haven't changed much. 

I was going to wait for another sale, but this is good enough. 

And after sleeping on it, I think I'm going to go ahead and get the travel insurance and cancel anytime policy. I'm unclear what my credit card offers in terms of protection. Especially COVID. I should probably read that. 

But yeah, that's my big news.

And late last night for an extra boost I checked out Reddit comments on what people were reporting for how long it takes Lexapro to work on their anxiety. The general consensus was around 6 weeks. I really hope so! So I marked it on my calendar. It'll be right around the time of my move. So it just gave me more fodder to keep doing this back to school prep.

And I'm going to try to stop beating myself up for feeling all these negative feelings. That's like punishing myself for being short. I can't help it. I didn't do it to myself. My body did this.

I think ...I'm feeling more amped to just forget people and things. Birthdays, memories, this deep desire to help. Nah, those days are gone. I put everything I could into people and was sitting ready and waiting to help the last 40 years and bleh. 

I don't know how much longer I'll live but I am fine renewing my lease on life for at least another 6 months. (This is a far cry from my best day on Zoloft where I was like sure what's another 40 years. Oh well)

Anyway, that's my update.

I decided to try the standby flight because I want to make it to the party. I finished my work, and I want the reward.

Yeah, it'll be a little nerve wracking working that remotely, but oh well.

Also, I'm going to Cabo. I just decided why not.

And I was also able to make my next reservation yesterday. Which is nice.

And also... I already forgot! Oh well. 

Oh I know! There's an all staff meeting in Sept. And we've been requested to attend on site. Considering they wouldn't approve travel for a training without a fight. I have a hard time believing they'll approve travel for just a meeting.