Still smiling

 Some random irritations that usually cause a meltdown happened. And...I'm still smiling. I cannot believe only 2 more days until I get on the road again!

I am excited!

Nervous but not overwhelmed.

Because I do pretty much nothing anyway, just doing it in a different spot isn't all that scary. 

My rental furniture is set to deliver. And one of my Walmart orders already delivered today. Whoops! I saw that it was going to do that but didn't want to think about re-calculating the delivery time. Because I kind of want everything there on Monday when I arrive. So on Tuesday I can get right to work.

Yikes!

I was feeling really good also because I've been trying on Single By Choice and I really like the way it fits. Really. It's something I've always felt but had a bit of a detour when it didn't really seem like it was all my choice since I wasn't actively sending suitors away. But this feels like my choice since I'm not actively pursuing nor am I all that open to it.

I know the true crime shows are fringe members of society, but that certainly hasn't hurt to bolster my case. And just finally feeling like this next journey is MY choice. It initially felt like an escape, but now it's morphed into an adventure. 

It's cool that next week I already have 3 social events planned on my calendar. Just one week and I've already done more than I did the whole first half of the year living in my old house. And much of the other years as well. If you count the visit a couple weeks ago, I've really already accomplished my undefined goal.

I'm sure I'll keep going on about this.

While it's easy to 'at least' your life when compared to terrible outcomes, I can't help but feel really empowered that I'm not having to start over after an emotionally risky proposition of a marriage. Or a bad relationship. I'm glad that I'm at a place where this now feels like a happy choice. 

I'm glad I don't have to go Survivor to win a million dollars to feel like it's my only shot to secure my financial future. I'm glad the struggle is behind me. I'm glad I'm not starting over from the bottom! I'm glad the desperation is behind me. It has been extremely liberating even just living in Summer Housing. Being able to be on my own and not feel left behind or that I'm missing out or that I'm incomplete. That is probably the meds talking, but I'm fine with that. 

Health insurance is amazing. I think for the time being at least until the next refill and probably up to a year, I'll probably stick with my medication subscription plan eventhough I'm paying out of pocket and I have insurance that would cover most of the cost. It's just extremely convenient so far. And right now, that meets my needs.

Even though there's this great horizon after my next financial goal. I like the finiteness of this goal. I'd love to say I wasn't goal oriented and could truly blow in the wind. But that just wouldn't be true. I'm trying to upgrade my lifestyle. I want to stay busy and social and fun. (Note I took any sort of friendship goal out of this.) I just want to get out and do things I enjoy. Or don't enjoy. Just get out! I'm okay with keeping busy for the next 0-3 years. I told myself today, I'll have plenty of time to rest up and idle when I'm retired. Now it's the run-up! Have all the fun!

So the funny thing that distracted me from writing this post a few minutes earlier was that my work travel got approved! What a strange beast - corporate America. Oh well! I decided to try to use this as my October trip. My Maryland Aunty wanted some company on her Florida trip. Since I'll already be on that side of the country, if my work load is light enough, I'll extend my stay and get down to Florida. It'll essentially be a free trip since I already have a round trip ticket from work! Yay, I'm not that jazzed about going to an old people's conference, but I love a free trip! Plus I like some sort of payback for using my points to travel for work this summer, so there's that!