Feeling a bit better about apartment

 It's hard to know when to keep trying and when to give up. Especially after coming out of a TWELVE year toxic relationship.

Oh well. One of the things my therapist told me when I hold on to emotionally risky solutions is that it's a short term solution.

So I've been trying to be mindful that this is just a short term inconvenience. It doesn't have to be a harbinger of any thing. Even if everything aligns, it's not necessarily a harbinger of good outcomes. 

Anyway, my apartment was not the smooth transition I needed it to be because of the pet smell and the wonky furniture.

The furniture is getting replaced and I think the smell will slowly dissipate as more areas of pet dander are found.

It was a bit comforting if not disappointing that the restoration guy didn't see any hidden stains. So now I'm focusing my search on pet dander.

I bought an air filter for peace of mind. I'm all about the placebo effect. As my therapist says, does it matter?

I'm also glad I didn't run the ozone machine for 2 days. I tried it out for what was supposed to be 20 minutes but ended up being 2 hours. I was kicking myself because I thought it was too long but after it aired out the noxious smell all but dissipated. I still get tiny whiffs of it because my nose catches everything. 

Basically, I want to stay because it will make my life easier and I'm trying not to assign any future outcomes to this decision.

I hope I don't get sick, but who knows. Plus fall will be here soon and I'll rely less on the a/c and smells won't be circulating as bad. And I'll have my own smells. Plus we just had COVID so I have a variety of masks. 

I think I might just rebrand my Cabo trip as an end of summer trip for Labor Day weekend. I'm not needing as much downtime as I used to think. 

It's okay to be a bit busy. 

Plus it'll be nice to kick off end of summer/ Labor Day/ and start of work with a trip. Labor Day is when I first started my job in that Old Place. And now look where I am. So that at least has a bit more significance.

And the next weekend I'll be out of town for a retreat that I still need to book and pay for. 

It'll be a fun day to reconcile my budget at the end of September! Yikes.

So I'll sleep on it, and I typically don't like to make irreversible decisions on Sundays, but this isn't that irreversible.

I'll wait to change calendar placeholders to the workday though. 

I went to Pilates and I think I'll do the 4 classes a month x 3 months. I want to wait for the free 3 month health credit we get, but that's not for another month.

But as I type that and try it on, I like the way it feels. They doing the Pilates. I think I'd already decided on Tuesday since I have dance class on Thursdays, but we shall see. 

Ok, I start to lose interest sometimes with these posts. My mind wanders...

Ok, so yeah, I put in a couple work orders. I didn't think I'd have to say if you notice a pile of dust please clean it. Oh well.

I think I live here now. This is manageable, if not ideal. I think I'm going to like living downtown. I love the sun!

I have an event tonight but otherwise the rest of the day I have to myself. There will be many naps.