Tuesday p.m. check-in

 I'm all over the place. It took me over 5 hours to get my list of tasks done. And that was just sitting at the computer. Can you imagine how long that would've taken before the internet!

Then I just spent at least an hour or two applying to jobs...for literally no reasons. To hide my shame, I didn't take any notes. Gosh! 

Not sure what's wrong with me!

My week cleared up so..you know idle hands.

I looked up some state parks but still not sure how to make myself go.

I did do alot today though!

I still have more to do and pay for.

I was ravenous all day and ate everything in the house. And finally at 6p went walking and got a pita sandwich. Should've just spent the $15 at the grocery store. Oh well, summer spends I guess. Still not going to get too worked up over this non-routine spending. My budget is good.

I'm actively trying not to cook these 2 weeks. Planning to get a Panda Express Party pack. Were it not for the heartburn still plaguing me, I would have easily gotten a Moe's Family pack yesterday to avoid this weird hunger. But honestly, if the hunger continues next week, I'm going to get the Moe's pack and be an American and just take heartburn meds. Grr, oh well. These are not typical times.

My debit card was aching today.

And I still have to pay the deposit on the power company's bill. So I still have that to do. And get rental furniture. I'm pretty sure I don't want to pay full price but not sure how to get the student discount.

Just a lot going on today.

I want to get some toast for what feels like a hole in my stomach. 

Oh, I was able to get an appointment on Talk Space. It was not the seamless experience I hoped for. It works a lot differently than Headway which was unfortunate. The lady I was matched with has Sunday appointments, so that was a big plus side. I hope she works out. But really, I hope my medication kicks in by then.

Why do I hate appointments so much. I need to get my hair done and even though I have a pretty light week, I wasn't willing to give up not one day to do it. I chose Sunday since that's a rough day anyway. But of course I had to make sure Monday was a light day, too.

I'm just waiting for my life to settle so I can have a proper check-in with myself. I don't think I can make not one more plan!! I'm all planned out...for now!