Compartmentalization - Never and Always

 Yes, the vivid dreams continue friends. But I've had dreams like this in the past so I can't say for sure if it's the meds.

I think I just completed Week 3 or 4, and I don't feel much different. Some days I'm excited about my move, other days I want to hang off the balcony. So, there's that.

8 days until I move! Wowzers.

I'm getting kind of excited in the I just kind of want to get it over with already, kind of way. I made most of my appointment. Signed up for most of my activities. I still have an eye appointment to make and some old appointments to cancel. I guess I should make a primary care visit at some point huh? 

There's not much to do this upcoming week. But lots to do when I actually move - mostly, appointments, events, and change of addresses. I really have a case of why I need to consolidate accounts, but I already kind of decided to just wait until I reach my final financial target. That way things have a chance to rebound. I thought balances were on the rise but they've slumped back down, so that doesn't seem to be happening anytime soon. Good thing I didn't get too carried away.

I have a hair appointment tomorrow. I think I'm giving up braids for now. As much as it saves time after the fact, the sitting for hours to get the braids in, and the sitting for hours to get the braids out is just not my jam. I'm only getting braids now because I already bough the braiding hair. After that, I might just stick with blowouts, as un-humidity and water friendly as that might be. They're more wrist friendly.

This morning I woke up with a list of things I'll NEVER be/do:

- A child star

- Someone's mom

- Call someone mom

- Call someone dad

- Have a close relationship with a mom/dad or brother/sister

- Be a best friend/ have a best friend

- Be a CEO

Some things that will ALWAYS be true:

- Graduating from college 3 times

- Be a doctor (not an MD, to be sure)

- My aunt's favorite

- independent

- a free thinker..mostly

- nomadic - lived all over the US

- saved half a million dollars in 4 years (even if I lose it all, I still did it)

The list seemed a lot more interesting when it was occupying mental space. I spent way too many hours this morning trying to edit a PDF. Finally had to rely on a paint and snip. The basics! For the most part, I'm looking forward to my next live. My next adventure.

I've been trying to make plans past the next 12 months, but that just doesn't seem as fun. 

I hope I make it to all the recreation activities. I've booked and paid for 2 vacations. And there's two weekend getaways I'm still mulling over. 

Also, I think I'm starting to take my job hunt a bit more seriously. I do still feel some air of job insecurity because I'm not that great at my job. I feel this because I didn't do well on the writing test, so that knocked my confidence down a bit on my ability to be hired doing this job again. So now I feel some level of desperation even though financially I'll be okay. More than okay, to be sure. But we all know I struggle when things don't quite go my way. And I literally already went through the exercise earlier this year of what would happen should I lose my job.

Even with 2 parachutes, jumping out of a plan before you're ready is scary!

I wish I would stop fretting and just enjoy this time and this adventure, but that's hard won.

I'm hoping once I'm more active some of this anxious energy will dissipate. 

The coughing continues. I really don't know if it's allergies or heartburn at this point!

I can't believe next week is my last week in Summer Housing! Yowzers kids. This is really happening!