Vacation Day 3- Evening

 It's 7p, and I probably did 1-3 hours of work today. Groan. 

What exactly was my purpose of checking my email? I am not a top level decision maker, and I didn't have nearly as much email as I thought I would need to sift through. 

Ugh, sensitive high achiever. 

I ran a report for my boss. And there was an inconsistency in one of the Knowledge articles, so I, being a sensitive high achiever, took it upon myself to look at all the related documents for inconsistency. That took me down a rabbit hole of frustration and mental finger pointing. 

I mentally pointed a finger at the lady I asked to make the updates. And the lady who was supposed to keep the articles updated. And the lady who is so quick to make her snide comments but when time to take the initiative, she waits for the agents to point out mistakes. I just realized why that comment rubbed me the wrong way - it's reactive, not proactive or pre-emptive. Not how I roll. I just feel like it's the plank vs dust scenario.  Then there's the vendor who for whatever reason, her feedback rubs me the wrong way. I take it personally because the articles were a mess before I got there, but her little jabs feel like they're pointed at me. When really, ugh... it's been 2 years, no one noticed? Like obviously the agents weren't using these documents and still don't so who are you making these requests for?

Anyways a lot of thoughts and feeling there I had to get out. So that took longer than it needed because it just highlighted some internal structure issues. Groan.

Le sigh. Can I make it 2 days without checking work email and completely disengaging? 

How do I disconnect. How do I take time off from work and truly rest and relax and rejuvenate?

Today I kept the computer on the stairs. I didn't turn on the iPad though - eventhough I wanted to see if my boss texted me. 

So if I make today the last day of checking work email - that'll be thurs, friday, and sat and sun.....so really 2 business days and 2 silly-days because there really is no email on sat and sun I just usually do menial tasks. 

I already know there's something on the weekend I want to do or at least pretend to send as though I worked on it on the weekend. 

I already started a to-do list for next week. 

So what to do...