1 month done! also save the date: Apr 2

 is it a countdown to my life?

idk

so docking my laptop has definitely...or at least seemed to help with my constant checking of email

i still have my ipad that i'm on 24/7....but can't check email on that

but yes the siren call of checking my email in the morning still exists

when i'm in bad i have all these things i want to write down...but once i sit in front of the computer... meh

i think i will get an ipad pencil so i can take notes on my laptop for journaling

also want to download calm app

thinking of what structured solitude might look like

no's still sting

not as badly and not as damning...but still suck

decided to stop playing mental games with my employer...

depending on how you look at it...well i can reframe what will be about 5 months of paid leave/no workload...so it'll take that

vs trying to work some magic into a formal layoff

i got what i needed... i need to move on...

no more shenanigans

so i'm going to try to completely disconnect in february

what that looks like

- no checking email or workday

- no writing anymore letters (unsent, just mental and written drafts and chat gpt screenshots) asking for severance and layoff

i'm free

i'm really free

and again spending money seems to be no problem

leave my shenanigans to bank bonus and card churning...the true taker of time 

thinking i might see if i can pay for my bro and i to go to family reunion in africa

for me alone it's 7k

we shall see...

still enjoy looking at my net worth

thinking tomorrow might be time for an adventure

my adventure buddy is kind of out of commission for awhile...

so...time for a solo trip??

current plan for any work money received from now

- 6k to help family overseas

- 4k marketplace insurance

and that's all i remember...ha...it's in a notebook somewhere...

ok...off to do more relaxing....