admittedly when i have a day like saturday where i just slept all day, i can't help but wonder if i'm just one step away from falling into the pit of despair. then i overcompensate with a surge of energy to plan out my life.
today i woke up happy; it's in the 70s in early february. it's sunny and breezy and the sounds of downtown noises are welcome.
i'm just happy.
so i wanted to note that.
i'm going to las vegas tomorrow to a concert and well...that's exciting.
my apartment is a mess and i'm still happy.
my aunt i think is having some unresolved feelings about my financial success. and free time. she keeps going on about accessing her social security and what she's going to do after this job. she said i was obssessed with money. ha. who isn't?! i foresee me being the target of some backhanded money related jabs. i've seen it all my life with her more financially successful sibling. she is trying to commandeer my free time since i have so much of it.
you're not entitled to it anymore than you are to my money. i worked hard to earn that. so we shall see. made me go a little digging on the internet about jealousy from family and friends about your FIRE success.
a lot of the mentality is not to talk about it. well that ship has sailed! but that sucks to have to live in hiding once again. i struggled to explain my job when i had a job. who knows what i'll say when i retire. ha.
oh well. still not feeling down. just have to re-commit to my structured solitude and leave the door open for those who want to enter.
between therapy and reading people's online journals. no one has it all figured out. you have to re-frame and re-start as many times as it takes pretty much..forever.
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