so i was having a few blue days in a row...and by the 3rd day of crying and cold gloomy weather outside... i bought a trip to the dominican republic!
this moment brought to you by FIRE!
one of my close relationships is ending and it made me very sad
going to the dominican republic put some distance between me and that sadness
it worked because i did not cry on the trip (except for during therapy) and got some nice sunlight and invisible-people time... i got to be lost in the vastness of others...
got meals and cleaning taken care of...yay.
it worked!
when i told my aunt about it...she seemed surprise...joking...like what could possibly be bringing you down (ie, since you're not working)...
so it got me thinking...
FIRE solves for financial instability or financial insecurity
i still struggle with emotional and physical challenges...
so yeah, emotional stability may be a lifelong struggle...and that's okay... financial stability helps ease the suffering...
seeing someone else post about adding some suffering to life made me rail against it..until i realized it's a part of life...and unfortunately something most of us have been programmed to accept to the point that we often times add it to our lives - consciously or unconsciously...
so yeah... that controlled burn/suffering i have decided is a part of my life...for now..
anyway... i'm now tasked with planning my retirement party...so my brain is a tizzy..in a good way... i have notes everywhere so i need to get it all in one place...
also...yay, early retirement!
even retiring in the winter has been fun..just the right dose of suffering...in the form of gloomy weather... i felt very accomplished driving from the aiport after some snowfall..
and got some snacks..
life is good again.
it's cold but the sun is shining!
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