seasons

 i'm on my second journal in ERE forum.

and yep, humans be struggling.

i see a theme that is observed in reality as well. there are just things people struggle to do. probably cuz it's just not that fun. and the alternative is easier.

just because we happened to figure out money, doesn't mean the other things come any easier. so in that regard, you'd think we had more empathy for people who haven't figured out money.

i notice the themes that i also struggle with

- daily habits (chores around the house, hygiene, etc..)

- better eating habits

- better sleeping habits

- socializing

and to some extent- mood management.

it's nice to not feel so alone and not feel like everyone has it figured out. 

so this gives me more data to lean into my seasonal way of thinking..like having a fall sport, or doing some activity for x amount of time... or having seasonal moods...like right now...i'm leaning into my snow-day season...where i veg out and stay home with less guilt...

no feeling like...i *should* be outside - walking or socializing.

i'm trying to be better about not placing these limitations on myself. 

but the risk for me is mental distress. but i guess this year i will be exploring those limits.

today is already off to a great start... i fried some plantain..and it boosted my mood. it's so yummy. and i had a great bowel movement...y'all don't know how freeing that can feel for me!

so i'm on cloud 9 for the moment.

so yeah, it's 20 days into january and i think snow day season is on its way.

there have been some mildly interesting events floating through my inbox as of late.. that was an easy yes my first 1st year in Newtown...but now that i've backed off the say-yes theme...they seem more like a meh. 

so i don't know.

but i do know i won't spend too much time thinking about it. 

can i just say i'm loovvvvving pre-early retirement... it's awesome!

i hope this feeling never goes away.