i did a grown up thing

 i have been reading an ERE journal that has held my attention. mostly for the detail on life and spending.

i find having cleared my FI goal (more or less), i'm not as compelled by money stories (don't get me wrong, i very much still am just to a lesser degree) as the story after. those are harder to find.

anyway, inspired by all his action on navigating the healthcare system and this weird pain i feel in my breast, i decided to schedule my mammogram.

it was surprisingly easy! 

and i made 3 phone calls! only 1 was fruitful, but i still did the thing.

i scheduled a mammogram. if my films don't make it...oh well!

i decided that worrying about the future was not helpful. i want to listen to my body and do the established routine and preventive care.

i don't know why monday just felt like a lot of pressure to do all the things. but once monday was over, surprisingly the pressure has alleviated.

i still have recurring thoughts of trying to negotiate a layoff given my boss's redundancy. so i keep replaying those conversations...they go like..

instead of extending my STD for another 13 weeks (only to be terminated), would you consider laying me off instead with 13 weeks severance, effective apr 2. given the relocation strategy and ongoing restructuring as well elimination of remote roles in our team. 

other thoughts - i could mention for personal family reasons. 

i don't know why i'm giving it so much thought. i will know more come march. 

grr i hate waiting for things to start.

oh well.

i need to wash my body and brush my teeth today...