life notes

 it's wed

it's a full week of no work

and i love it

i did wake up with some angst stuck in my throat

but it's because of a work with a colleague who wants to talk personal finance

i've been posting on our group's slack channel and i guess it caught their attention

tomorrow i have an interview for a summer camp job; i think it'll be an okay amount of suffering for the year; if i don't get it, it won't be the worst thing in the world; because after almost a month, i've been managing my free time pretty well

i still enjoy cancelling plans

and i still struggle with "should i be doing [x]"

where x is anything from eating veggies to talking to a friend or anything really...

but i'm hopeful it will remain manageable

i've been watching old seasons of survivor and that takes up some good bits of time

if i can stay in bed until 11a the day goes by much faster

i have accepted i will likely never return to my slim frame because of the lexapro...and i'm surprisingly okay with it; the alternative is dieting which is not sustainable for me

my small circle of regular contacts is my old college roommate and my 60 year old aunt; my neighbor...less so than last year; but i like him a lot so i want to keep him; but he's a grumpy old man the last 3 months...so not sure on that 

finances are stellar and stable

i just applied for another travel card on a whim; the bonus seems easy to meet and if i do..it'll give me a 1k head start to my fancy $6k trip to Yellowstone

i'm working on figurinng out what i enjoy and trying to base my decisions and actions and spending on that

i already find myself feeling more generous as hey, there's this pot of money i need to spend

so undoubtedly that transition has been easy! 

it helps when i make it a spending target where the goal is no longer to spend the least amount of money... i'm even socializing the idea with myself of upping my travel/lifestyle bucket this year

in other news...i'm also considering a cruise..

i think i'm pretty decided that i'm going to take the earlier of the retirement date rather than extend my short term disability...it's still a tether...i'd be losing or leaving about $21k on the table... so we'll see. but for now that's the decision...and the ruminating has been paused

i'm excited about doing my taxes. the software give you an audit risk score so that makes me feel better...it was exactly the kind of data i was looking for this year... so i love when that happens!

as for february... i have 2 solo trips on the books; and there are 2 group events structured.

i also have tutoring and a new activity i want to try

oh...news! i burned my hand in cooking class last week. oy! talk about needing health insurance. glad keeping that was never a question. 

okay...

going to work on some CEs now..

bye!