Tuesday afternoon check-in

 Admittedly, friends, I feel a lot more frazzled than I have recently after starting meds. I feel like old anxious me, but not in a good way.

I've been kind of feeling meh and was not that motivated to get my tasks done today.

I did brush my teeth and go to PT which was good. OMG, I do not enjoy cardio! But I am hoping once it becomes a part of my life, my body will tolerate it better.

I stopped by the grocery and got some vegan chocolate chip cookies. Waited till after my meeting with K to eat them. Yum, I ate 3.

I think cereal has gotten me down in the dumps. If you recall, I'd bought a few boxes to help me get through the last three days on Dragonfire meds. But I've been binging it and it kinds rains on my parade. Also, even without carageenan, Almondbreeze gives me gas! Def not to the same degree as before, but it's there nonetheless. After a lifetime of gas, I'm pretty much gas free these days without dairy. 

Anyway, I met with K and from the looks of her timeline, the spontaneous trip to Cabo seems like a no-go. I will need to be available to my team, and I can't rely on foreign hotel wifi for that. I'm not that savvy. Even though it's only technically 3 days, but I will have to have my document delivered by the end of that week. Even my trip to Newtown that week seems tenuous. But luckily many of those events are after hours. 

So as of now, I am moving forward as though Cabo is cancelled and will just go to Newtown as planned. I'm even planning on taking the later flight eventhough I already requested that day off. I'd rather be safe than sorry. 

But that being said, since all my tickets are refundable, I'm keeping the Cabo tickets just in case timelines change. And at PT today I asked one of the clinicians about my trip, and she advised that roos for Cabo are usually like $300/night and that it's one of the nicer/more expensive places in Mexico. So that got me more excited. #desiremydesires

I was even thinking of springing for the nicer hotel. It felt a little indulgent. 

Anyway, tickets for Newtown have increased a bunch and are over $600 which is not what I was expecting. I'm hoping tomorrow will be a different price. I'll probably go ahead and purchase those tickets tomorrow. To avoid having my seats cancelled, I'll probably just do a 1 way though. That way all options are available to me. But knowing me, I'll probably just keep checking prices ...because well... why not?!

Anyway, I think work definitely adds to my anxiety.

But after the meeting and being able to check a couple things off my task list and have a tentative plan for tomorrow, I feel more motivated to hack through the rest of my personal errands.

I decided to sit outside to make it more fun. And it is! I'm wearing long sleeve and long pants to mitigate bug bites. 

And I'm happy!